Judgement Day Van Der Waals @ 2009-06-07 20:10             Waking up today only to find myself in fear. I didn't understand it at first. Looking into the mirror, the shadow of fear is genuine. I finally understand, that tomorrow is my judgement day.             All these years now, all the suffering, it all comes down to tomorrow, doesn't it? Last time i was in the same situation three years ago, i couldn't sit still; I did everything but walk on my hands. I was so excited for the definite fate of sweetness. But now? What I might find is a ghastly month that might haunt me forever. I want to just run away. Stay in America. Just. Stay.             My life is safe in America, isn't it? Pointless but safe. No more heart breaking no more sensations. Carry on. And on. I can do that. Just let it fade into the backgroud, and the foreground, as I see it now, is an immense gray area. Why do I want to risk yet another chance of getting broken all over again.             Some say you have to love with a courage. Give me love or hate. A friend who would go to jail for me or an enemy that would run me with a chariot. Yes. That was what I wanted. Not anymore. People have not been hurt if they were to image enemies provide them entertaining emotions, thinking it spurs them furthur. I won't comment on that except, go out them and get hurt, experience it, then you'd understand how I feel.             Frankly, it feels like coming back to U.S. To face the unknown. Or rather, mundane? Mundane, without the one single element. Just that one thing. One person.             I await for the judgement. With peace. 阅读全文(9) / 评论(1) / 给Van Der Waals留言 / 扔小纸条 收藏: QQ书签 del.icio.us / 订阅: Google 抓虾

triple A. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Van Der Waals @ 2009-03-11 04:35 so..i had to take all the harmonies, so i only had one solo. but it was FUNNNN!! idk why i was swinging my arm the entire time hahah. i was...a little high tooLOL cuz its the second part of the assembly and we were gonna go to Tyson's and skip school. and the first part was f'ed up. but hope u guys like it!! GO MELISSA!! 阅读全文(48) / 评论(2) / 给Van Der Waals留言 / 扔小纸条 收藏: QQ书签 del.icio.us / 订阅: Google 抓虾

Fly Van Der Waals @ 2008-07-05 05:19 When you love someone so deeply, They become your life. It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside. Blindly I imagined I could keep you under glass; Now I understand to hold you, I must open up my hands and watch you rise. I have learned that beauty has to flourish in the light; Wild horses run unbridled, Or their spirit dies. You have given me the courage to be all that I can, And I truly feel your heart will, Lead you back to me when you're ready to land. I can't pretend these tears aren't overflowing steadily; I can't prevent this hurt from almost overtaking me. But I will stand and say goodbye, For you'll never be mine, Until you know the way it feels to fly. Spread your wings and prepare to fly, For you have become a butterfly. Fly abandonedly into the sun. If you should return to me, we truly were meant to be, So spread your wings and fly, Butterfly. 阅读全文(102) / 评论(2) / 给Van Der Waals留言 / 扔小纸条 收藏: QQ书签 del.icio.us / 订阅: Google 抓虾

Over You Van Der Waals @ 2008-07-04 05:11 hahahh so i guess thats all. honesty i knew all along that this was gonna happen sometime somehow, and i knew that this was the best decision for both of us, but im just too timorous to say it out loud. I wanna thank you, for everything youve done for me. youre a great guy, probably the best that ive met so far. u deserve much better than a relationship that only brings u pain. this is not what u need. u deserve a woman that knows how to love, how to establish a family, not a girl that doesnt understand love. thank you for being so tolerate of me, im stunned and touched, by how much youve tolerated of me. im immature, sometimes cold, and most importantly, i dont know you what you want and cant give you what you need when ur dying to have it. im not doing my responsibilities as a lover, as someone who brings you love and joy. thank you for all the pain u endured these two years, without complaining, without giving up. the feeling of deceit and disappointment that it brings you must have been devastating, but yet you chose to forgive. not everyone can do that and i truly appreciate everything youve done. im blessed to have someone like u by my side, giving me strength to move on. for two years, you taught me how to love. you taught me how giving is such a beauty that it leaves me speechless. youve given me so much, but theres nothing i can do for you in return. if anything, i wish the best for you. whatever is your decision, may lord brings you strength. thank you for this decision, it brings both of us out of a never-ending suffering. short pain is always better than long one. especially for you, its so important for you right now and you should stand up for yourself and stop doing what you dont like. and thats a man. millions of thanks, and thanks to god for arranging me to have met you in my life. im grateful of every second weve spent together, it was the best time of my life. its not something i can ever forget, but im happy to tell you that i'll get over it though its not easy. the feeling of heart beat wont fade, nor will the excitement and nervousness. but i'll keep telling myself, that girl, you need to get over him and move on. im not gonna cry, not gonna beg, all i'll do, is hope that you can hear my thanks. 阅读全文(163) / 评论(3) / 给Van Der Waals留言 / 扔小纸条 收藏: QQ书签 del.icio.us / 订阅: Google 抓虾

6/6/08 Van Der Waals @ 2008-06-08 00:38 maybe everything is just pointless without you. or maybe i just can't do anything without you. why do i feel like i already lost you? i know you don't wanna hear me talk, you don't want me to bother you, you don't want me to say anything that i'm not sure i can do. but..it's all so true that i can't do anything..anything at all not knowing that you're with me.. all i wanna say, is that i love you. im sorry but i love you.. i know you hate that, you hate it when i say that..but..how i wish you know how i feel..please..i wish you could see this..easy conversation can't express my feelings..i just..want you to know that i'm not what you said i am.. 阅读全文(90) / 评论 / 给Van Der Waals留言 / 扔小纸条 收藏: QQ书签 del.icio.us / 订阅: Google 抓虾

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